Stay Strong

If you watched it(I did ;p ), then you know how emotional, powerful, and touching it was.

Demi Lovato opened up and revealed her darkest most deepest secrets ever.

She is inspiring and strong for coming out and talking about her struggles and what she went through.

Not many people going through that get up in front of millions and say, "I cut" or "I had/have an eating disorder" or even say "I'm bipolar".

It takes so much to get up and tell the truth when honestly, you yourself are still battling every single day to face the truth.

Because Demi opened up about her struggles, it's given me the strength to stay strong and take a further step to recovery myself. I don't want to. I am far from wanting to recover...But, it's something I need to do to better myself.

So with that being said, I am going to start up a new blog following my daily life and my struggles as well as recovery. It's saying that I am taking a step towards recovery and putting my story out there. Hopefully by doing so, it'll help other people going through they're own issues and struggles.

In Demi's words;

"I felt like I was living a lie. I was dealing with all this pain emotionally and I felt guilt and shame. I decided to take it out on myself."

"You can lose all the weight in the world, but it's never going to be enough. For me, it was an obsession of the mind."

'One of the hardest things was learning I'm worth recovery. And I'm allowed to celebrate it.'

“Every time someone asked me for a picture or an autograph…I remember you’re nothing without this person.”

"I was reading comments from strangers online saying this girl looks horrible she looks fat”

"I didn't think that I had a problem. I knew what I was doing was wrong, but I never could admit I had a problem because I never thought it was bad enough."

""I went into treatment and I realized I could use what I was there for to help others. So why not air all my secrets and tell my story? Cause some people need to hear it."

If you or someone you know is going through emotional struggles, log onto,

http://demi.halfofus.com/

Or call 1-800-273-TALK(8255) to talk to someone immediately to have a confidential conversation.

Always remember, it does get better in the end.

Stay Strong <3

And much support to Demi Lovato!

And if you missed her special, you can go and watch it right on MTV as well as her after show.

And follow her on twitter!

@ddlovato

Keep checking in for updates and all quotes come from Demi herself and halfofus.

Demi Lovato's Stay Strong Airing on MTV

Some of you Lovatics out there probably already know this!

But tonight, Dei Lovato's special on MTV called,

"Stay Strong"

will be airing tonight at 10pm!

I am going to watch it.

I am proud to say that I myself, am a proud Lovatics :)

I support Demi 100% and then some.

Not for just coming out and revealing this huge part of herself but for being herself. Admitting that there was a problem and she got help for it. Some celebs choose to keep stuff like this to themselves. But Demi Lovato choose to let it out, talk about it and, go to rehab.

I support her because she is being true to herself and is being honest to her fans.

I support her because I too can say, I know how hard it is to give up that side of yourself that's been with you for years. That is in fact, a part of you.

I started cutting when I was 13 on Valentines Day back in

08. I became depressed and turned to that one thing, I should have never picked up. I struggled for 3 1/2 years with horrible additions. But somehow, I managed to let it all go. It wasn't easy and at times, I wanted to just give up. But I didn't. I still struggle every single day. But I'm staying strong.

I respect Demi for not giving up and

staying strong :)

"Love is louder than the pressure to be perfect." ~Demi Lovato.

Jamie Lynn Spears

As most of you may have already seen,

Miss Jamie Lynn Spears(The younger sister of Britney Spears)

gave a rare interview Glamour magazine.

As a fan of her(have been since Zoey 101 first came out), I must say it was nice to hear from her again after years of her disappearing from the media.

Jamie Lynn Spears talked about what she wanted to do before finding out she was pregnant at the age of 16.

Now, approaching the age of 21, she finally sits down and does an interview of how life is and all that's happened.

http://omg.yahoo.com/blogs/goddess/jamie-lynn-spears-hateful-comments-hurt-210528774.html

Tell me what you guys think of it in the comments below!

Pregnant Teens

I'm hearing a lot of teens getting pregnant lately.

Some of them are my friends and some of them are everyday people who I've randomly come across.

One of those people happen to be friend of mine who agreed to do an interview with me.

Her name is Kay Lynn and she's only 15 years old.

Me-"When did you find out you were pregnant?"

Kay Lynn-"When I was 4 weeks in because I'd missed my period by a week so...6 weeks ago today((January 12th, 2012))"

Me-"How did you react when you found out you were pregnant? Your only 15, you had to be terrified."

Kay Lynn-"I took 2 store bought tests at first and the first one was negative, so I felt fine. But there was a little bit of a second pink line on the other test and I started to get worried. When I finally went to the doctors and found out it was true I cried for about an hour"

Me-"so far, how has finding out your pregnant changed your life?"

Kay Lynn-"Oh god. I actually didn't expect it to change anything much until like 6-9 months and the birth but already SOOOO many things are different. Maybe it's because I'm showing early. The "pregnancy symptoms" are killing me, and my mood swings are making me the bitchiest person to be around ever. I also used to be a HUGE partier, and after spotting at my 6th week mark scared me, thinking it was a miscarrige, I've had to stop practically being the person I used to be."

Me-"Wow, that sounds terrifying honestly. What are your plans for you and the baby?"

Kay Lynn-"Well I'm not exactally in Disney Land. Um...I haven't really thought about any plans. I do know I want to keep it. I could never go through with an abortion without feeling bad, and adoption...I could never give up my baby after carrying him/her for roughly 9 months. I live in a house hold that could easily handle the struggles of having a new baby, so I figure once I hit my last trimester stuff will start falling in to place... Not the best plan, I know."

Me-"It's a plan. Does your family know about your pregnancy?"

Kay Lynn-"My older brother (32) knows, because he kept pointing out my weight gain until I snapped and told him. My real mom knows as well, but I'm having a hard time bringing myself to tell my grandparents (who I live with along with my real mom) because I haven't fully wrapped my head around it myself.."

Me-"At least you told half your family, it's a good start! How did they all react when you told them?"

Kay Lynn-"My brother is a major jokester, so he laughed obnoxiously loud and patted my back, "Good luck, Mommy. You're sure as hell gonna need it..." Were his exact words. But before he left to go back to his own house he left a note on my bed saying--and yes, I have the note in front of me now and am typing word for word haha--**I honestly can't tell you I know what you're going through because I have no idea. But you need to know that even though it probably seems hard right now, and will get harder, things always get worse before they get better and they WILL get better. Call me if you ever need me, or just text me. I love you." My mom....she was really sick when I told her so I think I got let off easy, she just looked at me for a long time and said, "I guess I started talking to you about sex too late, huh?" Neither reactions were really bad, but my moms made me feel like a terrible dissappointment..."

Me-"Wow, touching and yet sad all together. I honestly can't say I know what your going through, either. How is school going for you since you've gotten pregnant?"

Kay Lynn-"I never thought of it as either touching or sad. haha just reality. Um...I have a pregnancy app on my phone, and I'm one of the lucky--sarcastic--ones who have most of those shitty pregnancy symptoms. Fatigue. Headaches. Stuffy nose--didn't even know that was one until about two weeks ago. Morning sickness. Back pain. Dizzyness. Trouble sleeping. Lucky me. I don't get them all at once though, don't worry! Ha. Anyway, because of all those and my naturally slightly higher tempature now, my moms forced me home. I haven't gone to school in 3 weeks. So it's not going so well but i'm trying to catch back up from home."

Me-"Yeah, that sounds like most of the symptoms of pregnancy to me. Later in your trimester, you might get the food cravings and the frequent urges to urinate as well.

How did you become pregnant? like, were you using protection or anything?"

Kay Lynn-"I was on birth control, but I really hate swallowing pills so I only took it like for one week of each month, clearly that was a bad idea. And I was--I know this was bad--really drunk when I got pregnant. So I didn't give a shit weather the guy was using a condom or not. Which, clearly, he wasn't. He was pretty out of it himself, though."

Me-"I see. Deff a bad idea. You regret what happened?"

Kay Lynn-"Do I regret living and partying? Hell no. Do I regret being pregnant with my best friends baby? I regret my AGE, but I'll never regret my son or daughter...

Actually no, that's not true. I regret the drinking and smoking. It nearly killed my best friend, and I still worry like hell about her. And I wouldn't be pregnant at fifteen if I hadn't have been drinking. So yes, to some degree I do regret that."

Me-'Does your friend know it's his baby?"

Kay Lynn-"No. And I'm going to fucking keep it that way until he shapes the hell up and stops playing girls. "

Me-"If you don't mind my asking, what do you mean by "shape up"?"

Kay Lynn-"He's falling in to the same pattern all the kids in this town do. I mean, hey, it's a small town with not much to do. What else are we gonna do besides get high, get drunk, and sleep around, right? Honestly, I'm okay with that. I am NOT, however, okay with addiction of any sort if you're under the age of eighteen. It just means youve gone overboard. The other day he asked me if and I quote, "Your rents will let me smoke in the house, right? Im addicted. My mom understands." Um, no thank you. My house is very very nice. Upper class nice. My grandparents dont even let my 36 year old mother smoke in the house. AND, he plays girls like crazy. I don't want to get the typical, "Oh, ill be there for you and the baby" only to get lied to."

Me-" that's very understanding on why you wouldn't tell him. But have you thought that maybe telling him would maybe make him realize he needs to shape up and stop acting immature? "

Kay Lynn-"Yeah, I've considered it. But like I said, don't wanna get lied to. I'd rather just know ahead of time I'll have to do it all alone to begin with."

Me-"well then, do you intend to find out the sex of the baby?"

Kay Lynn-"Yes (: I really wanted a boy at first, but now I want a girl lol. I'm only ten weeks though, and I have to wait until 18 to find out the sex."

Me-" well you are deff almost there. did you want to say anything else to the readers?"

Kay Lynn-"Ah, I'd almost forgot this was for a blog. haha yes, I do have something else I wanna say; DONT DO DUMB SHIT, AND DONT GET PREGNANT! If you do, don't be ashamed of yourself, your belly, or your baby. Babies are gifts from god. And quit being so harsh on teen moms. We're not all dumb fuck-ups who will go nowhere in life."

Me-" I thank you for sharing your story with my blog, I'm sure readers will deff have a different look on teen mothers~"

Kay Lynn-"Sure hope so."

Being a teen mother can be hard. And yes, life changing. But in the end, you get a wonderful gift out of having a baby. Rather you plan it or not.

But it's still best to wait to have a baby. If you happen to get pregnant in your teens, nothing wrong with that. Not good, but it sure isn't bad.

So if you think your pregnant, go take a test and if it comes back positive, stop and take a deep breathe and relax. It isn't the end of the world. But always remember, protection!

Rather it's birth control or condoms. Protection is the key to success.

For more information on teen pregnancy you can visit Planned Parenthood

http://www.plannedparenthood.org/

And for information on sex and how you can protect yourself,

you can visit

Itsyoursexlife.com

http://www.itsyoursexlife.com/

Much thanks to Kay Lynn for agreeing to do the interview and much luck to her and her baby.

And check back again for more updates on teen pregnancy and other topics that might just catch your eye.

Till then,

Keep rollin'.

New Year and Fresh Starts,...Right?

So, it's 2012 and a fresh year!

Now, a lot of people think the worlds going to end in 2012.

Really?

No, the world isn't going to end. There might be some destruction going on, but it's not going to end.

Anyways!

Let's get onto the better things.

How was everyone's new years? Mine was alright, spent it at the beach with the family and watched fireworks. Interesting, yes :P

I've been crazy busy since my last post.

My nana died back in August, the very same night of her passing my bf dumped me.

Went through ups and downs. But all is starting to get better.

Hopefully this year I can keep posting a lot more with no distractions.

Now wouldn't that be amazing? ^^

Here's a question for everyone to think on until I can get this blog back up and running :)

What's your 2012 new year resolution?

Mine is to be more independent~

Leave your answer below in the comment section !
Until next time, keep it rollin'.

New Artist, SwaggaDeej

SwaggaDeej is a new upcoming rapper, who has made his way to youtube fame.

He has over a hundred something views on his videos, making him an up and raising artist.

I was lucky enough to interview him on his music.

Me-"how did you decide you wanted rap? Or, post your rap videos on youtube, I should say?"

Deej-"Well iv always listened 2 rap music iz my life and 1 day I started freestylein in my head and I thot I was pretty goood lol soo I started writein lyrics and I got alot better i sent some of my first songs 2 friends and put em on facebook and every1 told me i was good and I figured I could make a career out of it soo I started recordin my songs and uploading em 2 YouTube since den iv gotten a hell of alot better and gettin fans :)

Like every time I write a new song I get better and better and sometimes I suprize my self on how goood my lyrics are and how well I can spit em lol :)"

Me-" That's awesome, you are really good and I must say, I'm a fan of some of your songs now. You have a nice voice.

When did you start putting your videos on youtube? Like, at what age?"

Deej-"Thank u :D I started uploading my videos bout 4 or 5 months ago lol I was 17 den"

Me-"Wow, for someone who hasn't been doing this for a year, I must say, you are really good.

What are some of the things your fans say to you?"

Deej-"Hmm dey say I'm really goood or great stuff like dat :) their was dis 1 girl dat said tha rap game needs more rappers like me and I was tha beat rapper ever :D and some famous rappers like my music like lil wyte and king trill :D I almost got on lil wytes album but stuff happened and now I think he hates me lol"

Me-"aww, I doubt he hates you lol

You are good enough to have your own album. And I'm sure that one day you will have one.

Do people recognized you sometimes on the street or when your out?"

Deej-"No I always expect some1 to but it hasn't happened yet lol I think most of my views on YouTube and my fans arnt from here :)"

Me-"Well, give it time. They will attack you on the streets lol

What do your family think of what your doing?"

Deej-"My family loves me bein a rapper :) my sisters listen 2 my music all tha time :D my mom don't like my dirty lyrics tho lol other den dat she thinks I'm really goood :) I think iv only gotten 2 bad comments on my music 1 was from my ex friends girlfriend who told me 2 stop rappin lol and some hater on Facebook like tha second day of me announcein ima b a rapper :D but haters give me dat drive 2 b better and better u know?"

Me-"True, haters are what get make you famous, sometimes.

How would you rate your music?"

Deej-"Lol hmm like from 1-10 I'd say 100 fo now:D srry I'm cocky I got alot of swag :)"

Me-"haha, that's totally fine. You need swag to be in the music industry these days. Lots of confidence, and it seems like you have that pat down, pretty well ^^

What's your favorite song you have written, so far?"

Deej-"We Be Steady Mobbin Remiiiix probably :) every song I do iz my favorite till I write and record the next 1 lol :D cuz I keep gettin better and better lol :)"

Me-"You do.

How fast does it take your to write a song and put it all together?"

Deej-"Like 20 or 25 minutes :) once I listen 2 tha beat tha lyrics just come out lol but when I'm recording tha videos it takes longer cuz I do like 9 or 10 takes just 2 make sure itz perfect and my flow iz goood :D"

Me-"That's good.

Whats the highest views you have ever gotten on your videos? If you can remember."

Deej-"Hmm I'm not sure lol I think itz a hundred something :) I'm not really big yet but I think itz goood fo only bein a rapper fo 4 months and doin all tha promoting my self u know?"

Me-"Yeah, kind of hard doing it all by yourself, sometimes. It has it's highs and lows, I guess.

If someone big asked you to be on their album, who would you want it to be?"

Deej-"Easy lil Wayne :D he's my hero :) or as a matter of fact anybody from Young Money"

Me-"Lil Wayne is good.

What do your friends think about your music? Are they supportive of it?"

Deej-"Hell yeah :D my friends love my music dey all say ima b famous and rich :D"

Me-"Oh, before I forget, I need to ask you one more thing to go up on the blog.

Where can your fans find you at? Twitter, tumblr, fb, etc."

Deej-"O I got Facebook but I'm on twitter more soo dey can hit me up on twitter :) @Swagga_Deej I'm always lookin fo ideas fo what song ima remix next"

Me-"How has putting your videos on the world wide web changed your life?"

Deej-"Well when I get a new song done and put it on YouTube I get dis feelin ^.^ itz amazin 2 have hundreds of ppl sayin dey like what iv made :D without tha Internet it would b alot harder 2 get my music well known."

Me-"Anything else you'd like put out there for your fans, readers, or bloggers?"

Deej"Hard work pays off never give up on ur dreams just be patient goood things come 2 those who wait :)"

Much thanks goes to SwaggaDeej for letting me interview him.

And make sure to follow him on twitter and subscribe to his videos on youtube.

http://www.youtube.com/user/SwaggaDeej#p/u/7/OETQM62-e4U

And make sure to keep checking him for more updates on SwaggaDeej along with other upcoming artists right here on, Keep up Bella~

Sorry I've been away for a while...

I've had some family issues going on and right now, it's pretty stressful time.
But, a few weeks ago, I sent one of my friend who is having a baby boy soon, my very own first baby booties(Ever crocheted).
Surprisingly, they turned out WONDERFUL!
Everyone loved them.
I was so happy when she asked me to crochet some b.c me being a self-taught crocheter, I don't really now a lot of patterns. So, I got on the internet and started looking for cute yet easy baby booties. Sadly, I could not find any good booties and then when I did, they were too big for a newborn baby and as much as I changed the hook size, it just wouldn't fit.
So, I discarded those patterns and decided to make my own patterns.
Amazingly, they came out perfect, I was just so happy!
I'll post the pictures below so you guys can see them. And, just so everyone knows,
My patterns are not for sale and will not be given out, so save yourself the trouble and please do not ask for the patterns.

Sending off those baby booties have made me feel so good, that I'm now starting to make business cards and an email for orders and what not.
All of this will be set up shortly just as soon as everything with my family is straightened out.
So just wanted to get the update out and I will hopefully be back soon, enough!

Also, my nana is really sick...and she is dying. Her liver is failing and has breasts cancer...I ask out of the bottom of my heart, please pray for her. Pray that she gets better and everything will be fine...Please?